Shadows of my Past

 There were shadows

Consistent on the edges of the room
Persistent, refusing to move
Waiting for them to succumb.

An uproar I seemed
Had teared my heavy chest
I couldn't breathe,
And mother, I fell down.

It was the shadows of my past
I had resisted, and have been so far
Like an eclipse, once in a while
It appeared. To me.

Took away the most smiles
I once wore through my freckled face
And that feeling of desolation
Bareness was filthy
Though oh mother, I was born to feel that way.

Kehar

 Roz raat ko ek wahi baat yaad aati hai
Gham tha bhara bachpan me 
Ek wahi yaad rulati hai
Beete nai the din woh khilone se khush ho Kar wale
Jab hona tha sar par maa ka haath
Woh haath tha kisi aur ka
Soch wahi tham si jaati hai

Raatein thi woh kaali kuch chupi me band
Saha itna sab aankhon ko karke nam
Paas me tha parivar jisko thi Na khabar
Beti bik rahi thi
Waqt tha bahut kam.

Savere me savera ho aisi choti si aas thi
Dil ke paas tha andhera
Dimaag me bas marne ki pyaas thi
Kya karu, Kya bolu kisko
Dhundna pad raha tha woh shaks
Bachpan Kya khaak tha woh
Bas lutne ka ehsaas tha woh.
Baras beetein phir maa ne pucha
Kya aish ki meri beti ne mere peeche se bol
Chin si gayi thi boli Kya bole beti ye
Kamane nikle thi shohrat
Kho baethi thi beti ko woh. 

Har Raat

 Sab baatein kahi nai jaati

Jaise woh gam jo saalo se mere andar pal raha

Zehan me zinda hai par labo pe nami

Jaise ruke hue aansu in aankhon me

Jo gaalo se mudkar hain

Jaise woh udaasi bhari raat

Ya fir raatein

Jo bhulayi nahi jaati

Ya phir woh akelapan

Jo apno Ke beech ka hai

Bas rehta hi hai Na jaane kyu har pehr

Ye sab baatein boli nahi ja sakti

Kyuki raat toh bas chadi hai ae dost

Ye guzre hue pal ka sannata toh abhi baaki hai

Thoda is raat chalega

Thoda us raat

Bahega ye dil jo sabse kuch nai kehta

Aaj ek ehsan aur karegi ye raat mujhpe

Rahegi chup jab sawera puchega

Ki ye takiye aaj phir gile kyu hain? 

'That' Child of Mine

Those little hands that whisper love
Those little hugs that whisper closeness
'stay close' mum was the magic word
I tried to kiss your rosy lips today
But a part of you somewhat remained. 
While most of it stirred up in the air.

'Make the most of it' was a story so told
And I did until life curled up in myriad wraps
Little by little everytime you wrapped your arms around me
I had whispered, 'just a little more of this memory to hold'. 

You were born in a pool of blood,
You left, so that.
You were the precious time everybody talked about, 
Wouldn't trade those moments for an ounce of anything else.

I ll always remain your mama
So be it any way
Love you my child, oh please you listen
Don't unwrap those curly arms
This time you fall asleep. 

Gone

The shallow night I reckon
When a glimpse of you was suffice
To make me feel complete.
The lapse between sunset & sunrise
Is the hour we connect between. 

Ek afsana

Yaad use bhi ek adhoora afsana hoga

Jo poora na kar sake

Shayad ek wahi bahana hoga.

Teri itni garimat ke tu humpe meherbaan itna

Jis gali tu Thera, 

Wahi tere mehboob ka aana jana hoga. 

Ek Raaz

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वक़्त गुज़रा पर तू फिर भी साथ था 

गम की घडी तोह कुछ पल ही टेहरी 

तेरी मोहब्बत में बीतें कल का एहसास था 

मिल जा एक आखरी बार 

मेरे दुनिया में खोने से पहले 

सरकती आहटों को दिल में 

डूबोने से पहले 

हम जानते हैं ऐ दिलबर की वह 

तेरा आज था 

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